To what blessings of Allah will you come to deny?
Or at least that is the gist of the holy excerpt.

Oh Allah, for the longest time, this trip with you is none more than a violent sail
The clouds, storms and calm, all in one and all important
Yet you still let me sail and view the world unlike I have ever seen before
I was given contacts in the past few days, my vision is clearer than ever
But I still fail to see what I've become and I still fail to see what I have wasted

Through songs I kept reciting at heart "I've tried my best, I've tried in vain"
But the world is a mess! Oh the world is a mess!
Not seeing that it is I who made it that way

I am ashamed to turn to you,
but then who can I turn to but you?
But I am ashamed to let you see me
Yet you see me as me and not as the weakling I claim to be

How do I learn to love you, how do I learn to see?

I long to be a good person,
But my reasons fail me,
Please allow me to see how I can do this with you
and perhaps for you

With my inner vision impaired, please hold my hand
Please lift me away from the traps I have made
Guide me along until I find closure
No!
Guide me always and never let me find closure
For closure and comfort will bring me closer to my undoing
And allow me to be idle-minded, forgetful

So maybe, at least and at most,
Help me, remind me to see
The smiles of my friends and family
The smile of Omar
My mother
My sister
Let me see my father's smile
Even if it means looking at my own self
Block away the filth I have

Let me see the loveliness of small talk
with the strangers I meet
and the people I love

Let me see that nothing is in vain,
That all will unfold discretely,
If I am unable to see it because of my own impatient tendency
Remind me of patience, remind me of death
Remind me of strength and remind me of beauty
Remind me of you as you are my final destination

There's no more I can say, although I would love to have said more
But InsyaAllah, I will
for my own sake, I will