HULK IS MAAAAAD!

I'm f*d up.
That's how I feel most of the time now.

I don't know how to handle my life anymore. I lost the touch of maintaining my academics. I'm not confident I'll live up to my old GPA for this semester. I lost direction. I lost my will and strife. I'm not interested in studying anymore!

But then really, that's the only thing I'm good before.
I wish I never let my feelings control me and the way I think in the past.
Because I may not have dropped mandarin for philosophy and I wouldn't have to experience a class taught by a bigoted, close-minded, and obtuse lecturer. Both my test 1 and Midterm were VERY unsatisfactory and really, I don't think I'll get a GPA above 3.5 for this sem if I don't shut down my rational thoughts and opinions during his prattles in class. BUT GAHHH I CAN'T!!!

Why do I have to cope with such absurdity in life???
I'm losing my mind!

Okay that's about philosophy, a subject that I give no genuine interest in the first place.

No heeeere comes Calculus n Physics!! Seriously THESE WERE MY TWO LOVES.
But noooo because I'm so caught up with obsessing over "Why in the world would they hire someone who can't SPEAK right in the first place? Did they just ship her here to save the cost? Gives me HELL MAAN! Do you even care about your student's education anymore?!" (exaggerated, don't mind me cause I'm just really frustrated right now) I let the joy of doing math problems slide by.
And same goes physics! It's basically the same situation but the lecturer isn't half-bad.

I don't want to let this happen. No. I CAN'T afford it! I'm through with facebook! I'm through with being distracted all the time! I'm through with thinking too much! I need ACTION!

AGI IDUP AGI NGELABAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!