What I wrote in Kelantan

If you’re reading this now, you should know that this isn’t typed on blogger, I’m typing this on Microsoft Word because I’m at Tanah Merah Kelantan right now where there is, sadly, not a single wireless network to connect!
Well, there is ONE but it needs a password. And it would be unethical to use a neighbor’s expense paid network just because you’re in desperation to alleviate your boredom during nocturnal hours.

 This will probably be copy-pasted later on. But if not, then I’m not talking to anyone I guess because no one would read this besides myself who is currently doing the typing. :forever alone mode: (Yeah, I’ll cry you, or myself, a river if I could :p )

Tomorrow will be Raya Hajj and I’m not putting any effort to go to sleep and wake up early. Well, I’m not used to sleeping at the right times, basically. (In lefie’s term, the right times would mean from 10 to 12.30) But it’s also partly due to the fact that I’m anxious and stressed out to what my SAT score would be. My best rational guess for the outcome would be 1700-1800, but then again, it could be worse. And maybe by some miracle, it would be 1900 and above.

But one thing’s for sure, I really REALLY do not want to go for another SAT reasoning test. Why? Because if I go for another test, it’ll cost another 300 sums of MYR from Mother’s purse and I would gulp down the most guilt-infested lump of stone if that happens. Stones do not taste good in general.

I don’t even think it’s possible for me to catch up to the SAT score report deadline for some of my choice Universities who have higher standards of meeting their requirements regarding the 75 percentile of admitted students.

Lastly, there’s a huge possibility that it might not change anything and even worse, the scores would be worse than before. All that dough spent, to life’s waste-bin it goes. 

What I want more than anything right now (except the fact that my scores would be better than what my pessimistic thoughts anticipated) is to have the inspiration to write something for my essays, and recommendation letters. I, for one, am not good at writing serious things. I’m a non-conformist when it comes to writing. I’d put forward writing a load of crap on my blog rather than writing about things that actually matters such as what is said above.

For the essays, I guess it’s my own problem. But who does a recommendation letter regarding his/her own attributes and character?

*sigh* I’m really gonna have to try though; I’ve got no time to lose now…