Stay gold, Ponyboy.

Honestly, I'm not much of a reader.
And I don't feel like writing much because of that.
Well, writing meaningful, thought-provoking things I guess (I don't really classify sullen expressions and sloppy poetry as thought provoking, at times I really think those things are dumb)

But being how I am, or was, these days, a habit I used to do sorta crept underneath me. It felt really good.

I've been meaning to read The Outsiders for a long time, I bought it the time Zara was still laughing with me and looked at me like a good ol' sport. I don't know when those days are going to come back. 

I read two books from the same author (named S.E. Hinton by the way), back when I was still in secondary school. It was from Kayyah's collections, Taming The Star Runner and That Was Then, This Is Now(I think we bought this one together), and I agree when she mentioned to me "All the storylines are the same".

Well I kinda agree. Sure the theme was basically about teenage rebels who were having it the hard way in life; getting jumped(a term used to say "ganged up", usually the jumpee gets a horrible beating), Quitting school early to get a job because of single or dead parents, and being tough as nails the whole time so the world wont hurt you. But in spite of all the sour stuff, there was always the strong message of brotherhood. If all the characters were loners I'd probably think that they might just spit the air in disgust to every damn thing and shoot themselves. While Taming The Star Runner and That Was Then, This Is Now might have a message of betrayal, (one-sided between the characters, but that's just reality) The Outsiders have that tight-knit hold where they always stick it up for each other, no matter what.  If one of the members might get into too much trouble from his own doing (slashing some other greaser's tires for fun), then he'll have to face it himself fairly. But if one of their pals were in the brink of trouble with no where else to go, they'd have his back even if it cost their own lives.

One line, that one line got to me, and it made so much sense. Social friends are the people you see in school and would care less about them outside the gates, buddies are different, buddies are the ones who are always with you, the ones you love, the ones you almost can't live without.

Not sure when the next time would be when I pick up another book, but I'm guessing it's time I pick up physics and microecons instead.

But I like the feeling I'm in now, I kind of like it almost more than anything.


Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower,
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day,
Nothing gold can stay.