It's hard...

I dread the times when I choose to break a friendship I had with someone.
Because unless he/she doesn't do anything to irritate me to my last nerve, it is just sad.
I love every single one of my friends, and memories still linger in my thoughts.




But question: I love you, you don't love me the same way or you just don't consider me at all knowing that you have more friends and ignore/neglect me completely. What should I do but call the "friend" term off just to save the hurt I was enduring?

Is it my fault I chose myself instead of a friend?

Lately I have been cold, heartless to the ones I loved most. I'm not usually that type of person, and it's especially hard and hateful to do it to those particular people.

It's not like I want them to constantly message me or chat with me all the time. I just want to be acknowledged as a friend, maybe like having my texts replied after a long time not talking to that someone or maybe getting a call from them asking me how I was doing. (The latter is just an example though, there are more ways to acknowledge a friend in my definition even in the smallest efforts)

I just want proof of their sincerity of the friendship we are having, it's okay if you haven't the time and place to catch up with me, but knowing that you actually can and you do absolutely nothing about it...I just can't.

I can't go on with thinking how I am pining for something that doesn't actually exist.

I always thought it was sad
The way we act like strangers
After all that we had
We act like we had never met ~ "Sunset" by The xx